When Master and I first got together, I had come from a childhood that had not enticed me to be trusting of people. I was very skittish with people, and didn’t really trust easily. I also tended to worry a lot and tried to be controlling of situations out of self protective mechanisms.

Being in a relationship with him that has been healthy and productive has taught me how to trust another human being. I also don’t really worry as much about things as I used too, and it has really relieved a lot of stress of my shoulders. It takes a lot of trust to make a Master/slave relationship work. If you can’t trust the person to control your life, or future, it’s almost impossible to submit without a gigantic inner struggle, and doubting everything.

Over time, with consistency, and following through, proving the Master is trustworthy and will do what they say they will, a deep level of trust is established. Now, if he says ”It’s taken care of“ I can just trust that the situation has been handled.

I know he will follow through, do what he says, and that I can trust him to take care of me… giving up control, even for little things was hard.

(Even such as washing my hair in the shower, little things that people take for granted…)

Master will do his best, to make sure things turn out well. It is now easier to just trust him that things will be okay. But it was hard getting there.

It is incredibly difficult to work around someone else’s schedule, or be on their schedule. I may want things done a certain way so that I know its taken care of, and he will make me wait, or do it on his schedule or his terms. He may also decide some of the order of things I want to do things in, is not the correct priority.

Accepting his scheduling, and time-frames have been hard, along with trusting that things WILL get done eventually, and I just have to let them go and trust him to do what he says. I still worry a lot, but a lot less than I used too. I do tend to ask when things will be done, because knowing when he will do things helps me learn to trust him because he does it when he says he will, even if it’s not on my time frame.

Master never forced me to trust him, accused me of being bad, or got angry for pestering him with lots of questions and why all the time. He let the trust be established over a long period of time, so now, I really can say, ”I trust you“ and mean it. The level of trust I have with now, is very deep and often scary. I have never been this close or intimate with another person before.

I appreciate the opportunity he has given me, and the patience with which he established our dynamic and relationship. While it can still be difficult to trust people in general, I at least know I can trust him and believe in him.